Little joys he brought to my life

I always think of writing dating stories, because these are very interesting and I love ” falling in love”. In fact, I focused too much on falling in love rather than maintaining that love.  I know how Burmese hate cheesy stories, they will laugh when someone above thirty  says ” I am in love” . They might laugh you behind as if you were feisty.

In fact, my favorite people in the world are people who encourage others to be in love. So this is the story to encourage people like me who have absolute faith in power of love.

I came to an island in Europe last year to work as a middle grade doctor. It was hard especially because of weather. I came in the winter time, and I was devastated to be in  a place which is always wet, gloomy and cold. I only lived in South East Asia with temperature above 25C before.  When I arrived, the weather was not really bad in late September, so I walked near my work place . I was also thinking may be I need friends to make my mood elevated. Unfortunately, most junior doctors at hospital  want to drink till late night during weekends and I cannot go along with them as I need sleep most of the time.

Then I thought of opening my dating profile and decided to date again after three years without dating with anybody. ( well, I was quite surprised that I was asked out by a few guys from London instantly, and in Asia, I was not that popular though ). When he asked me out whether we can go out for a cup of tea, I agreed it instantly. It was mainly because I was lonely and miserable. It was only two weeks after I arrived in Isle of Man. I was pretty nervous and really wrecked my brain what to wear. But when I saw him for the first time, I was surprised, he was wearing very casual clothes .He behaved like he dint’ pay attention to me. He walked so fast , in front of me and made me so breathless, he didn’t even open the car door and restaurant door. And I was too nervous and I couldn’t concentrate much on his conversation. Mind you, I was not used to his accent in the beginning. We talked for about 1. 5 hours and he drove me back.  When he didn’t call me again , I thought may be he is not that into me. We dated TEN DATES without touching each other. It was really a mile stone in my life. Finally, I consoled myself may be he just wants to comfort me as he is a nice person. He spent for me and took me to nice restaurants. I was not even earning anything as I didn’t have bank account. So he treated me most of the time.

I asked my European friend ” do guys from island invite girls just for friendship?” and she said ” no, Hnin, unless they really like you”. That day, he followed me into my house, suddenly, he held my hand and put it on his beard. Sincerely, I had never touched any guy with beard as my dad and brother don’t have beard and I had never dated any man with beard before. Instantly, I felt connection to him since that moment. We looked into each other eyes and I didn’t know how to behave. So I put my face into his chest and tried to calm myself down as I was shy and nervous. He patted my back so tenderly and kissed my forehead. Later, he told me he respect Asian culture and he himself felt shy to touch me or to tell me his feelings. But he decided he had to make a fast move otherwise he would never have guts to tell his feelings. He also thought a lot what would he do if I decide to go back. He noticed me as someone who is quite impulsive and might suddenly leave the place. In the end,  he said ” can I date you as a girlfriend? I will date you as long as you wana date me even if it is six months”. He melt my heart and I felt his feelings so deeply.

He sends me simple , but meaningful messages everyday. These messages give me encouragement to go on with life in my new place. There are times I thought he might get fed up with my whining, but he was not, he was patient and said he would look forward to see Happy Hnin when my mood was terrible. And he told me that I can be completely myself with him and that’s what I am most of the time. Sometimes, I told him how much I miss Malaysia and how I cried when someone made me upset at work. There are the moments my heart beat so fast when I saw him standing at my door step after his work just to give me some moral support and some cuddle.  I told him there are plenty of pretty girls in Isle of Man who are even younger and why did he chose me. He said ” Hnin , you made me impressed with your smile, I fell in love with you because of your smile and whenever you smile genuinely, you make me fall in love with you all over again”. He said he became a better person because of me, he went through tough times with relationship breakup and became cynical, but he said I am too innocent and accept everybody as if they are. He said he has never trusted anybody like that and he trusts me completely. inspirational-love-quotes-sayings-13

When I shivers in the wind, he makes sure he grips my hands tightly so that I can get warmth from him . If he sees me without any warm clothes, he drags me to nearby store to buy some gloves or warm attire. Weather is terrible, but he drove me everywhere on the island including beaches where we could watch wild life like otters and birds. We sat side by side, watching mountains and trees. He can read my face like a book and instantly knows whether I am happy or sad. One day he told me I can cry as much as I want and if I cry, he will just hold me and cuddle me.He will not tell me to stop crying.

We have watched movies together, went to the best restaurants on the island and watched the sun rise together. Yesterday, he held me so tenderly and asked me ” can I live with your forever, I wish we can be together forever” and I said ” yes”.

That does not mean we are going to marry. But I want to spend the rest of my life with him. We are just so happy together right now.

 

Hninn

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